Undeserved Love

God has spent my life weaving a love story. Regardless of my path, I come around the corner and stumble upon His love at every turn. I wish I could say this makes me strong enough to love Him alone. I wish I could say my passion for Jesus was so filling to my soul that I don't need anything else. As much as I want to be that strong independent woman I always thought I'd be, I'm not. Not really. I like relationship. I love my friends. I adore my children. I tried dogs but they poop on my stuff and my love isn't that strong. But I love love love being in relationship. When it comes to men, this isn't an easy bent to have. Especially since that area of my life has not shown the most excellent notes of success. I thought that God would want to teach me the "how to be strong and alone" lessons. Especially after my marriage failed. I thought maybe I deserved to be alone, like time out. And then suddenly, just like a loving Father would, He brought me the most wonderful gift. Completely undeserved and so much more than I could have dreamed. I read all of those magazine articles about making lists of what you want in a man so that it would come true. I couldn't have made a list to describe Darren in my wildest imagination. And yet, here he is. He is so very handsome, physically all I could ever dream. He is kind, thoughtful, generous, intelligent, and fun. He does boy things, like shooting guns and fixing pipes and building stuff. He also does man things, like making good decisions, being ethical and conscientious at work, and striving constantly to be a better father to his sons. He sends me flowers, thinks I'm funny and beautiful, and tells me so. We click in all of those silly ways that I never thought possible. I was never mushy and now I can't stop, as if all of this sappiness was locked up inside and now might possibly drown you if you ask me about it. He makes me want to shout from the mountain tops. And because God is a Father who does nothing without perfection, He allowed this amazing man to fall in love with me. With me!

Life is good. Love is good. God is going to make a love story out of me yet. Just watch.